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wow.. this year pocket money bertambah jor.. and ytday i slept 16 hours.. i dont know why.. till this morning.. 11 am only i woke up.. slept from 7 pm till next day 11 am.. so terrer me.. till ppl msg me and i dunnoe reply wat.. "yeah.. i  know.. sleeping.. not now.. haha.. die lar.. yes drink drink" i m wondering navin understand what i write or did digi send it to him.. whahahha.. today is the 3rd day of chinese new year.. not goin anyway. coz wanna finish homework and everything before penang trip.. ciao-ing to pp tmr.. i m sorry that i cant come on thursday.. sorry to men, tan, reen, carmy, mui yee and feng! i almost forget how to type coz sleep too long.. my hand really kaku edi lar.. ahha.. alrite.. new year new wishes.. new lesie~

well.. chill-ing edi.. lets start with a word.. ‘happy’..

why everyone is greeting happy new year, happy chinese new year, happy birthday, happy valentine, happy deepavali.. why there is a happy word infronf of everyone festival and became a greeting.. is it when u wish ppl with a happy word den everything is turn into happy and nice? =) or =/ ?? no one online.. i mean my gang.. all went out for chinese new year.. and i just came back and typing this infront of the comp.. i saw something that i shouldnt have any respons of it.. i just feeling weird.. duh~ hate that feeling..

ok lets talk bout something happy.. i got byk angpau today.. den walk and eat den get angpau.. suppose to be happy got so many angpau.. den.. poser alot today.. in the temple.. i think it is a temple.. or garden of the temple.. somewhere u can pose lar.. den makan byk.. damn nice the fishies.. i like it so much.. coz the sauce.. one of my fav.. 

nothing much today.. *feeling weird* i think .. =) or =/ ??

what makes me different?

i feel like shouting now.. ar.. just cant find anyone to chat with now.. ar.. feel so weird.. ar!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate you man! Dun ever steal MY WORDS! I HATE YOU!!! damn it!

Fireflies light up people’s life when it is dark.. hrm.. what i wanna say here? i dont know.. cny edi.. new year got new wishes.. *smile*.. well cey wrote me testi just now.. it was touching.. and suprise that vincent wrote me a testi too.. simple and nice.. i dont know why now days i like something simple.. like a leave.. like pen.. like a word.. "mystery".. dont u think something simple is better than something nice but complicated.. so many testies i got these days.. i was suprise the news spread so fast.. everyone is so care bout me.. feel touching and thankful that i got them in my life.. they always tell me.. "yee mun u still got friends for you" repeat and repeat in my mind.. they knew that i know they will be there. they just remind me.. ‘dont be sad’.. navin is so sweet to me these days.. haha.. it sound like last time he being cruel to me.. no lar.. he is just too worry bout me.. everyone worried bout me ytday.. feel so guilty.. and touching.. love reen, men, feng, tan, cm, jy, vin, kt, dan, jon, dpn, chayang them alot alot alot.. neway.. happy chinese new year! *almost forget to wish everyone*

i was talking bout high-ing with carmen just now.. i think i m not high today.. *drink is not a solution to forget something* by navin.. i agree with it.. it doesnt work on me.. hrm today is another emo day! dont know why friends around me emo-ing.. included me i think.. what do u think bout me? emo or normal? sorry tan that i dirty your car.. i know it smell like jus pankreas now.. sorry.. i was being so high today and high-ing with my gang! high-ing den emo den high again den emo.. that is what we do today.. i sprank call jon for one hour.. den chat with dpn for half an hour.. den chat with carmen for half an hour.. i dunnoe why i like to sprank call people den chat edi.. shereen lar influnce me with her chatting on the phone.. haha she gonna bang me if she see this.. while just wanna tell everyone that! *drinking is not the solution to forget something in your mind*

*girls emo in the beginning of the year.. =).. why la?* by russel.. he said dat my blog is too emo for him to handle it.. wahahhaa.. the whole gang is emo-ing.. i mean tp gang.. i m trying to write something funny.. so russel can take it!.. these days really nothing funny.. nothing nice lar.. all emo fella got lar.. the 6 girls.. emo emo.. hrm who is the only who not emo? haha mayb tanith lar!.. bb gang seems like so relax~ not emo-ing at all!.. m i rite? i hope so.. hehe russel said that he is emo because he cannot tahan hearing the girls emo everyday! are we? dont know wei!.. everyone is toking bout emo now! why lar.. talk bout emo den everyday lagi emo! dont u think so!

ok lets start with something funny.. i kena ejek by teachers.. coz i m too noisy in the class.. so kena bla bla bla bla.. hehe.. nvm lar.. use to it edi.. ytday we keep on asking pn yap about his son.. ar tuesday oso we asked the samething.. hehe.. but unfortunately her son got gf edi!.. no chance for livia! sad case.. haha i duno why we sama sama laugh during add math time.. but we like peperangan during math time.. rushing to copy down what teacher wrote on the board.. den rush here rush there.. like orang gila.. hrm.. enuf funny? i dont think it is funny.. is crap!

why he treat others better than me.. i feel so jealous, i feel so pain.. he dun even touch my blog last time.. why he act so.. why he like this.. why i dont get wat i want.. why i beg him so many time he still dont do.. why he can it now.. why.. i feel so pain.. i dont want live in his shadow.. why show me all this things.. why.. i just be back normal.. why show me all this.. make me jealous, make me feel pain.. make me suffer.. i dont want to love him anymore.. i dont want!.. i dont want to suffer.. i dont want!.. i dont want ar!

i saw this lyrics - you are not alone by Michael Jackson; in tracey’s blog. She is right, a song that had its own meaning. I like this part; Everyday I sit and ask myself; how did love slip away. It touching my heart. Is nice to let her or him know that she or he is not alone, someone is still there for she or he. Dont you think it sound sweet? Someone being there for you quietly, when u need someone to lie on, she or he is ready for you. Someone who care for you, love you, listen to your problem and wipe your tears; an angel.

Complicated mind complicated talk. Complicated thoughts, complicated action. Complicated couple, complicated love. Living in someone’s shadow is so tired, you feel freedom when you can let it go. Jealousy on someone, why feel jealous if you dont love him anymore; dont you think that your heart is telling you that you still love him? Dissapointments on someone; you are the one who putting so much hope on it and you will be the one who feel dissapointed. Loving someone; before you love someone do you ask yourself why?

I got a good news from my friend. I like to listen to good news, at least that good news had make me feel better about love. There is still a happy couple around me; she, she, he, he, he, broke up.

I afraid of being love and i still suffer in love.

Look strong from the outlook but inside you are weak. Hiding, pretending, acting for a long time really can make her feel tired. Supports, cheering, and cares make her stand up again. A short message can give someone support to start everything again. The deep scar on her heart can’t be erase till the day she forget about him. His words make her feel hurt whenever she recalls the memories. She is afraid to be in love but not forgetting to cheer me up. I feel her pain, her broken heart, touching my feeling. Her cares for me let me know that she still remember me. So many people broke up, all sadness around me make me recall back the sweet memories with him. So many many things happen; I can see the differences before the sadness and after the sadness.

If problems can keep in the box, I will fold it nicely and keep it forever and ever.

If love can keep in the bottle, I will melt it and pour into the bottle.

If wishes can come true in the sea life, I will throw all my wishes into the client sea.

If disappointments can tear into pieces, I will throw it into the dustbin.

If sadness can be burn, I will start the fire no matter how.

There is so many if in my life. Be strong.

Sometime when u really down and there is no one for u to lie on it you feel like giving up.. after a while.. after the tears come out from ur eyes.. after you shouted.. after you do all the thing to let the stress out.. you stand up again.. stand up after u fall down.. tell yourself that you are strong to handle it.. face it.. and solve it.. think about the one who always beside you, support you, listen to ur problem.. and u feel better.. crying is another way to solve the problem.. cause u really cant think wisely when u are down.. painful and suffering.. why there is so much sadness around me, my friends and him.. why cant let me see her smile.. why must u show it to me.. ur tears, ur sadness, ur heart broken.. i saw it.. i feel it! i really cant stand it these few days.. is coming towards me.. forget edi.. come again.. forget.. come back.. aiks. i m tired of being like this everyday.. i really need to stay alone for 24 hours.. if i can.. but i cant.. i dont know what i m talking now.. i m feeling lost!